This past week has been very interesting. I have had two occasions where I struggled to speak my voice and just be… well.. ME. The first was with a friend who was asking me for relationship advice and I neglected to tell her my real thoughts because I didn’t feel like she really wanted it. Sometimes, people are ready to act and make changes and other times, they’re not. Intuitively, I feel like she’s not in a place to act on anything I tell her, so I just didn’t go there. The point is that, I honestly don’t know if she was ready to act. When your girlfriends ask for advice or help we owe it to them to give it them.
Then, this evening, I was speaking to a friend about something that I felt was uncomfortable. Now first let me say, I am all about speaking my truth, but my problem is having TRUST in another’s ability to receive or respect what I have to say. (This comes from a lots of historical evidence that people naturally place judgement and are not safe) So I’ll massage the point, I will go around the point, I will fight with the point and do every thing except GET TO IT!
In the meantime, I felt my friend becoming confused and frustrated as I bounced around with what it was I had to say. Luckily for me, she was standing in the virtue of GRACE. I can tell you, when people don’t get to the point, I feel like they are hiding something from me or being shady! And… that’s exactly what I was doing. And you know what.. in the end, I actually felt weird and slimy for losing power in my communication.
How many times have I had conversations with people only to lament afterwards because I lost power and the message got completely jumbled or even lost.
So ladies, this week, I am taking on the practice of being STRAIGHT in my communication. I have two more conversations this week that can be considered “difficult” if I am not centered in my power and trust that the spirit of love will be translated above all else.
Affirmation: I speak with straight, authentic communication rooted in love.
In love & light!